Himalayan Breeze

After 45 mins of the most treacherous terrain, and the most vicious downpour, the mountains were kind enough to let in some sun. I put my hand out of the window to engage in a gentle battle with the Himalayan breeze… Then I stuck my head out and breathed some of the purest oxygen the region has to offer. I was sure the trucker didn’t share my enthusiasm for a view that was probably commonplace for him, but my music got louder as the clouds rolled back – country roads, take me home.

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Country roads, take me home 🙂 Hunza to Gilgit

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Published on Facebook on May 30, 2014.

An Ode to the Karachi Monsoon

I’m not sure how I’ll make it home. I don’t know how many more minutes of rain will drown all these streets; I don’t know when the children playing in the puddles will finally be bored or when this man will get his motorcycle to work again; I don’t know if Karachi Electric will ever be prepared for these downpours; I’m not sure how Malik Riaz’s mega infrastructure will fare; I don’t know how many people are worried about their loved ones, or how many people are sipping garam chai on their balconies; I’m not sure how long my wifi will hold and I don’t know when my exhilaration will turn to despair.

I do know, however, that Karachi and the Monsoon rain have an unspoken agreement that makes home feel like home and that makes my city beautiful to me. And when the two collide, unprompted, my heart screams – Karachi, I love you!

Monsoon, welcome home.

Originally published on Facebook on July 23, 2015.

Soul Stirrers

Two weeks ago I left Pakistan, hoping to see and know different countries in Latin America and the Caribbean, with some people I hold very close to my heart. The holiday was promising from the get-go not just because of the company – Latin America is a region I have long been obsessed with, for one reason alone: Cuba.

My obsession with Cuba stems from years of studying (under no duress from institutions) the revolution, the people, the cities and Che/Castro. In doing so the subject became so real to me that I never really had the nerve or the audacity to plan a trip to Cuba; when should it be? how would it be? for how long? how long would be enough? would any amount of time be enough? it was one of those distant, yet exciting dreams, the kind of dream that motivates you, intrigues you, ignites something within you… thus like any dream, I couldn’t plan it, it just had to happen to me.

And so it did. Four days into my Latin American dream Lorena Viale and Miguel Olivencia surprised me with a visa and a ticket to Cuba. The rest, as they say, was ecstasy.

A friend asked me whether Cuba met my expectations. It’s strange but I never had any expectations from Cuba; I always knew I would love it, no questions asked. I felt I knew those people; I knew those places; every inch of Havana steeped in a history of sacrifice so ripe, so raw and so beautiful that it made me never want to leave; every conviction so strong, every hope so tainted, every effort so honest, every conversation so meaningful, every handshake so genuine.

The past two weeks have taught me a few things – that no one can ever top what Lore and Miguelito have done for me (hah!); that the Pakistani passport is a curse; that immigration officers have a tough job; that some friends are just tailor-made to travel with you; that it is incredibly easy to survive without internet and telephones for days on end; that the new Pearl jam album is bloody brilliant; that fake teeth are unreliable; that the jet lag emanating from a 35 hour journey home may never leave me; that the waters in the Caribbean are bluer than blue and calmer than calm; that Colombian taxi drivers are great at giving guilt trips; that Venezuelan street art is incredible; that Aruba is better than it looks on your post card; that iguanas roam freely in Curacao; and that Panama City has a lot more to offer than you would think.

Most importantly however, I’ve learnt that dreaming may be what keeps us alive, but realising our dreams gives us new life.

Hello Karachi : )

Originally published on Facebook on November 1st, 2013.

The Rain of Tears: Hindu Temples in Pakistan

Katas Raj Temples, Chakwal District, Punjab, Pakistan

Pakistan never ceases to surprise me (albeit not always pleasantly!). There are several myths and legends associated with Katas Raj. As per Hindu mythology, the Pandawas (of Mahabharata fame) were exiled to this spot, and these temples were constructed to commemorate their arrival.

My favourite story, naturally the more dramatic of the various versions, is that relating to Shiva. Shiva is the Destroyer amongst the Hindu Trinity and legend has it, that it was here that he received the news of the death of his beloved wife Sati. The “Rain of Tears” following this news created two pools; one here, in the homeland, and one just across the border, in Ajmer.

Originally published on Facebook on September 4th, 2016.

The Hard Goodbye

My first conscious memory of London is a vivid image of the evening sun strewn across Hyde Park, at age 3, as i fed the ducks with our cook (before he became an alcoholic and when his food was still edible… Gran is right, those were simpler times). Fast forward age 8, I remember coming here after having been to the States, and thinking, “I can’t believe this is my sister’s favourite city. There’s nothing to do, and even McDonalds doesn’t taste as good here!” Subsequently, the countless visits every summer and over Christmas allowed London to show me her best side, and naturally, my city grew on me.

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#driveby #london

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3 years ago, I moved to London at perhaps the most turbulent time in my life. But London, she took me in like one of her own – I’ve walked her streets at 5am and 9pm and seen her at her best and at her worst. I’ve trudged onto the tube (to stand uncomfortably close to strangers) cursing the rain and broken bread with my friends over a summer’s day in the park. I’ve been to plays and I’ve been to raves. I’ve tried Pakistani food that has been called Indian food, never tasting like either. I’ve waited for a cab in the freezing cold and I’ve cursed my flat for not being equipped for the heat. I’ve dined at the best restaurants and eaten kebabs from the street corner after a night out. I have smiled because the busker was strumming my favourite tune, and allowed my football team to make or break my day. I’ve learnt to obsess over the weather for no real reason and accept that for days on end, regardless of what’s happening in the world, Jimmy Saville will be the most important news story. I’ve learnt that every cabbie’s life has unfolded in the most intriguing sequence of events. I learnt that London is in fact the sum of it’s parts, a beautiful amalgamation of the millions that live here, and that is its unique DNA. I’ve learnt that no matter how long you’ve lived here, it is always acceptable to ask for directions, because London is always hiding something you are yet to discover.

In many ways, I leave London today at age 3, albeit of a different life. In the last 3 years, my friends have turned into family, and my family, more so the most integral part of my being. Perhaps I now know better than to leave with an image of the sun shining across Hyde Park, (I mean we all know the sun never shines in London) but I leave a happier, fuller person. Happier, but heavy hearted nonetheless. So, my dear London, you know I wont be the same without you, but there is consolation in knowing that you wont be the same without me either. I would say thank you, but that would mean closing this chapter, and I’ll never be ready to say goodbye, so here I am raising a glass to you. London – here’s to the nights we felt alive.

Karachi – heartbroken but optimistic, here I come.

Originally published on Facebook on March 24, 2013.

Acquiesce

Just like thatjust like that, I forget the broken roads, I forget Amir Liaquat’s monstrous face plastered over all the billboards, I ignore the motorcyclist spitting paan strategically out of his helmet, I ignore the constant honking and the fact that no one observes traffic rules, I ignore the recurring adverts about mobile phones and lawn prints, the telecom wires that are dangerously close to the ground, and all the ‘Ramzan offers’ that are apparently too good to refuse. I can smell the raindrops hitting the mud and regardless of how humid it is, the weather feels like it’s perfect outside.

Just like that Karachi, with the first monsoon rain, I fall in love with you all over again.

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Monsoon mornings 2

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Originally published on Facebook on July 25, 2014.

Well-placed nostalgia

I find it deeply perplexing, that moments in history that one does not contribute to in any tangible way, can alter the course of ones life. My two weeks in India gave me the chance to meet a number of people who’s grandparents were born in present day Pakistan. I found it unsettling in so many ways, that a decision made by our grandparents, to move in 1947, is what so intrinsically defines us now.

I travelled to india with a number of preconceived notions – notions of clear differences and distinctions between two nations, notions of different accents and mindsets, notions of tolerance and intolerance, notions of love and resentment, notions of misplaced nostalgia, notions of chaos, notions of discontent and most importantly, notions of being completely alien to this undiscovered world of over a billion people.

Things never really are what they seem. The first thing that struck me about India was its sheer size, the sheer magnitude and vastness of it all, and the crude realisation that amid all the madness, there is something about the system that prevents it from imploding. This was accompanied by the sudden epiphany that 90% of my time in India will be spent commuting from one place to another.

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Qutub Minar #throwback #delhi #takemeback

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In two weeks, I have attempted to skim the surface of India’s northern cities and it’s southern rivers and She has welcomed me as though the haunting line that divides us is a mere figment of my imagination. I have breezed through immigration. I have found myself wondering how I haven’t yet had an accident in Delhi and whether all the cabbies here are secretly engaged in a game of “chicken”, I have seen all the chaos of home and all the order of the first world. I have realised that you rarely feel more alive than when you almost get hit by a bus every five minutes while being driven around in a cycle-rickshaw in Chandni Chowk. I have noticed that Indian street dogs are as resilient as the MQM in Karachi and as lazy as Nawaz Sharif’s cabinet. I’ve seen all of Delhi’s monuments from the Qutub to the Fort, enveloped in a dominant yet silent grandeur, humbly embodying a rich and colourful history the city so forcefully represents.

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These crowded streets Delhi, February 2014

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Down in Kerala, I have seen what it means for separate nations to reside in a single state. South Indians are largely oblivious to most other Indians let alone Pakistanis. I have soaked sun on a boat in the back waters and witnessed natural beauty like never before. In Agra, I could sense the Taj Mahal acknowledging my presence in all it’s cliched majesty, standing relentlessly beautiful amidst thousands of people.

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#backwaters #kerala #india

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I have haggled with shopkeepers, seen people fall ludicrously sick, said yes to all the right things, rekindled old friendships, made new friends, reunited with older ones, I have heard “salaam” “namaste” and “sat sri akaal” all in the same day, I’ve been proud to come to the realisation that I know a lot more about Bollywood than any of my Indian friends and at the same time been blown away by how enamoured my Indian friends are by Pakistani culture, I’ve danced till my legs hurt, laughed till my jaw hurt, been silly, been embarrassed, been excited, but most importantly, been truly content.

Now that I am leaving, it hits me that I was never an alien here. What was alien were my preconceived notions. I felt no differences, I felt no resentment, and no intolerance. What I felt was love, a whole lot of love, and an understood, understated regret on either side of this imaginary line, that our relationship status was at best, complicated.

My nostalgia is no longer misplaced. I have no qualms in saying that I felt at home in a place that could very well have been my home. On a very basic level, only now have I realised, after criticising the rush in Delhi and the lack thereof in Kochin, that our alphabet, our script may be different, but our language is exactly the same.

India, you have been incredible. Until we meet again…..

Originally published on Facebook on February 25, 2014.